My life used to be full of anxiety, fear, uncertainty, hatred and unforgiveness to name some aspects. I felt the world was too busy to recognise someone like me. I never thought about the possibility of sacrificing myself in any way for anyone. I used to say, “Bear your own cross.”
I was born with poor parents, who struggled very much to bring up us four children. They had great difficulties, such as little money to buy food, but they somehow provided good meals for us. Many were really poor in those days.
In primary and secondary school, it was the world of class monitors, teachers, and the Principal. I was dealt with for the slightest misbehaviour. They called it discipline and grooming. I had to bear the pain, however severe. I was seasoned for what the future brought me in the Nigerian/Biafra war and the Gulf War of 1992, 3 days after my arrival in Saudi Arabia.
As soon as I had my calling from God in a dream in my second year as a student nurse, I knew it was time for a change. I found Jesus. He makes all things new; all sorrows, joy; gives all throbbing hearts calmness; all hunger, satisfaction. He is the pillar on which I lean. I follow him.
Lord, what you bless cannot be cursed. I hold on to the promise of God, “For I will be with you always.” (Matthew 28:20) Even though we can never be good enough to enter into relationship with God, we are accepted by God, who gives us everything. We have everything by grace through faith.
One day at church I approached with fear when we were asked to come forward for deliverance. I said to myself, “This is a real disgrace.” To me, it was leaving my old self for a new one with God, because, with God all things are possible. (Matthew 19:26) Even in my lack of confidence I moved forward. I had a real change.
I knew that I was now happy and courageous. I have remained thus. I am always happy. I could hear Jesus saying in my ear, “I shall remain in you.” I admitted being a sinner and asked God to forgive me and live with me forever. I could hear him saying, “Lo, I will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5) I knew I had a calling from God.
Our best days with Jesus are the best days of our lives. We become more than conquerors. (Romans 8:37) Without Jesus there is no life. In 2 Corinthians 5:17 it says, “If anyone is joined to Christ he is a new being; the old is gone, the new has come.” If we nurture this relationship it will grow. We receive righteousness, peace, joy and forgiveness. Without an intimate relationship with God life is meaningless.
Dear fellow Christian brothers and sisters, lets cling to Jesus. That’s where all happiness is. There is no more anxiety. Praise the Lord! Hallelujah!
(Child of God)